Friendly Fire

My heart tries to pound its way out of my chest. My breathing is quick and ragged. Sweat trickles down my forehead despite the chill air. I wipe it away with an unsteady hand. Clutching my rifle tightly, I peer into the night. A soldier shifts nervously, cracking a stick under his foot. I whip my head around to glare at him before returning my gaze to the darkened forest. Minutes tick by. Perhaps it was only a raccoon. They are nocturnal creatures. It didn't have to be an enemy soldier.

I take a deep breath and let it out shakily. Motioning to the patrol behind me, I quietly press on into the night.

The surprise armor assault had hit my section of the line extraordinarily hard. Of the twenty-eight men in my platoon, eighteen had been killed or wounded. Reinforcements had arrived promptly, but all were fresh out of basic training. They were little more than boys. Still wet behind the ears. Not guaranteed to stand in the heat of battle. I had been raised to a sergeant and told to keep an eye on the new arrivals.

Our platoon commander had been killed in the attack as well. My new CO, an ambitious but naive lieutenant, had ordered a patrol to assess the enemy's strength on our section of the line.

So this is how I find myself sneaking through the night with five trigger-happy boys behind me. Suicide.

The wind gusts suddenly, bringing a faint sound. I freeze. Nothing. I listen nervously. There it is again! It sounds like human speech. Dropping to all fours, I crawl forward silently. The patrol follows.

A moment later, a large building is visible through the trees. It appears to be a command center. I can see enemy soldiers going in and out constantly. There must be a large concentration of troops in this area. I watch for a few moments, making notes. In a short time, I get a good idea of the enemy's strength on this part of the line.

Motioning silently to the boys behind me, I retreat back towards our line in the same stealthy manner. We are within a few hundred yards of our line now. I begin to breathe a little easier. Surely we're safe no----

Tracers arc through the night as gunfire rips apart the silence. The branches over my head splinter. I dive to the ground. One of the boys behind me cries out and falls backwards. The rest drop flat, yelling incoherently.

I shout in fear and rage as the bullets streak through the air over me.

"CEASE FIRE!!! We are friendlies! For goodness sake, cease fire!!"

A moment later, the gunfire quiets. I rise unsteadily to my feet and look back at my patrol. Four boys clamber up shakily. One lies unnaturally still. I grit my teeth and look towards our line. A group is gathering. A young recruit stands before his foxhole, his weapon trailing in the dust. I can clearly see the agony on his face as he realizes what he has done.

Tears fill my eyes and I set my jaw as I turn away. Friendly fire. The worst kind of casualty.

* * * * *

Wars are never pleasant. No one enjoys the pain and anguish that such conflicts bring. Soldiers respond to the agony differently. Some draw more deeply from the King's Word and use it to salve their wounds. Others turn their pain onto those around them, taking their suffering out on those they love.

The enemy enjoys hurting soldiers in whatever way he can. He especially enjoys it when soldiers do his job for him by harming each other.

Suffering is a hard thing to bear. It can sometimes be easy for soldiers to let the pain distract them from the reality that their loved ones are not their enemy. Sometimes they rip into their friends and family with their words and deeds, acting out of their hurting hearts. They do not realize the damage they are causing.

Such casualties are a waste. Friendly fire is a horrible thing.

My comrades, I know the suffering you are experiencing. Pain is hard to bear. Yet the King is able to salve your wounds. Take your pain to Him. Do not let your suffering blind you to the realities of friend and enemy. Do not take down your loved ones with friendly fire.

My Captain, watch over my words and actions.

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Fully Engaged

My sleep is filled with fitful dreams. Terrible shapes haunt the night. They shadow me as I move through the forest. I can hear them growling, a low rumble that seems to grow louder by the second. Demonic laughter echoes in the treetops. Something leaps at me out of the dark. I whirl to face bared fangs and scream in terror.

I sit up shaking and wipe an unsteady hand across my brow. My heart is trying to pound its way out of my chest. Waves of adrenaline still course through my body, slowly receding as I come back to the waking world. I listen nervously to the night around me. I hear nothing but the sigh of the wind in the trees and a far-off rumble.

I settle back down into my blanket with a relieved sigh and smile sheepishly at my own fantasies. The rumble grows louder.

What rumble?

I jump to my feet and peer into the night beyond my foxhole, my senses on full alert. The wind gusts briefly and I lose the sound. It comes back, louder than ever. Instantly, I know what it is. An armored column!

I grab my helmet and jump out of my hole. I must warn the commander of the imminent threat. They sound as if they are head--

A violent hand picks me up and throws me through the air. I land with a grunt, losing my breath. The thunder of the concussion shatters the night air. Dirt and rocks from the shell's impact rain down on my battered body. I crawl forward, trying desperately to find shelter.

Flashes illuminate the other side of the clearing. I grovel in the dirt as the night is torn apart around me. I am tossed about like a rag doll by the explosions. Squirming forward, I search desperately for a foxhole, any place to find shelter from the attack. I can see the massive tanks lumbering into the clearing. Foot soldiers run alongside the armor.

A hole appears in front of me. I slither into it face first and lie panting on the bottom like a fish in a boat.

An electronic beep catches my attention.

I sit up and realize I am not alone. A soldier slouches on the other side of the hole, appearing totally engrossed in a handheld electronic device. He is playing a GameBoy.

My mouth drops open in disbelief.

"Hey!" I shout.

"What?" He doesn't even look up.

"What are you doing?!"

"Playing Super-Duper Mario 10,000. What's it look like?"

"Don't you realize we're under attack?! For crying out loud, there's a war on!" I can feel the earth-shaking whump of mortars. The crackle of small arms joins the cacophony.

The soldier remains engrossed in his game.

"Is there? That's nice. It doesn't concern me very much."

I stare at him in disbelief. "But you're a soldier! Of course it concerns you!"

He shrugs noncommittally. I realize my mouth is hanging open and I close it with a snap. Rising to my feet, I look down at the soldier in sorrow and a bit of irritation. I realize there is nothing I can do for him right now. The Commander will have to deal with him.

With a sigh, I chamber a round in my rifle.

* * * * * *

A war rages among us. Most true soldiers see the reality of this war, their eyes opened by the Captain. Few will deny the truth that we fight battles every day. Yet not every soldier is a fighter.

The enemy is very crafty. He knows he cannot ultimately triumph through an all-out frontal assault. Yet he is unwilling to simply accept defeat. He continually plots new ways to entrap the King's soldiers and make them useless.

He found one of his greatest weapons in modern culture. Using the attraction that the world holds for mankind, he draws in many soldiers and catches their attention with temporal things. He gets them totally immersed in the culture. More often than not, they soon forget about the things of the King.

Thus the enemy neutralizes many soldiers without striking a blow.

Far too many soldiers are so completely engaged in the world that they do little in the King's service. They maintain their faith and keep their relationship with the Captain free from reproach, but they are not doing harm to the enemy. They pose little threat to him.

These inactive soldiers go through their life just living. They never truly step out in faith and carry the war to the enemy. They appear to have a fulfilling life, but they do not experience the joy and exhilaration that the Captain gives when His soldiers fight well. They are on the front lines, but they might as well be in reserve for all the good they are doing.

My comrades, examine your life carefully. How much are you doing for the King? Have you become so caught up in the cares of this world that you have been neutralized? Do not go through your life in such a state. Step out, dust off your weapon, and go to war. You cannot fall. The war has already been won.

My Captain, keep me in the front lines.

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Corrupted Rations

I stare at my friend's retreating back. Putting Denney out of my head, I turn and wander down the line. Greetings follow me.

"Jensen! How's it going, bro?"

"Hey hey, look who's here!"

"What's up, man?"

"Jensen buddy, good to see ya!"

I smile to myself. When every day might be the last for your friends, you are always happy to see them alive.

Ahead, I see a group of men clustering around a supply truck. Making my way through the crowd, I see that our weekly supply of rations has been delivered. I wait in line with the rest.

After receiving my rations, I head back up the line toward my foxhole. I smile at the soldiers who greet me. One soldier catches my attention. He pays no mind to me or anything else as he sits with his back to the world. I squat in front of his foxhole.

"How's it going, Bill?"

He jumps and spins around.

"Jensen! I didn't know you were there. I, uh..." He hastily shoves something orange under his pack. He seems to be genuinely happy to see me, but his eyes refuse to meet mine. "How are things on your section of the line?"

"Bill..." I sigh, "Are you still eating those old S-rations?"

He fidgets.

"Why would you think that?"

"Come on, Bill. Be honest with me."

He looks at his boots dejectedly.

"Alright. Yes, I am."

"Why? You know they're bad. For crying out loud, the enemy poisoned them!"

"I know, but they taste so good! Well..." He scuffs at the dirt with his toe. "At first, anyway."

"Bill," I say sympathetically, "I know how you feel. They do taste great. But they are harmful in the end. A little poison now doesn't seem to hurt anything, but it will take a toll on you later. Besides, we have clean food now. Before we knew the S-rations were bad, we didn't have a choice of what to eat. But now we do! You don't have to keep eating the poisoned food!"

He sighs.

"I know, Jensen. I just can't help myself. Please leave me alone."

He turns away from me and stares into the forest. I open my mouth to say more, but decide against it. I rise to my feet and look at my friend. He knows I am still here, but ignores me. Shaking my head in sorrow, I continue back up the line.

I grumble to myself. I think it would be better if no S-rations are available for the soldiers at all, but High Command refuses to discontinue them. Something about part of the soldier's training being to learn to make right choices. The supply personnel certainly don't help with those choices. Flighty and giggling, the girls almost seem to encourage soldiers to get the S-rations.

I sigh. Just another battle in the war that I fight.

* * * * * *

Battles rage over every aspect of life. We fight battles day-by-day without even realizing it. Struggles over what we watch, think, do, and say are a continual part of normal life. Every person has different battles to wage. Not one person is tempted exactly the same as another. But there is one area that all men struggle with.

Purity.

The King designed men to be visually stimulated. It is very easy for men's passions to be awakened. Even more so than women, men struggle with keeping their minds and hearts pure and free from lust.

Many men fall into cleverly-devised traps of the enemy's making. Falling prey to their runaway desires, they engage in fleshly activities that indulge their lust and feed their cravings. They feel on top of the world for a brief moment as the rush hits. Afterward, they feel like rotting maggots squirming under the gaze of a righteous King.

Tragically, too many men do not realize the truth of the Captain's sacrifice: They are freed to not indulge their flesh. Before the Captain opened their eyes, they did not know that what they did was harmful. Now they see the truth of the enemy's traps and can freely choose to avoid them. They are freed to drink the Living Water instead of the world's polluted water.

However, the enemy does not give up easily.

Even though the soldiers' eyes are open, he still tries to ensnare them. He fills their heads with lies, telling them that it doesn't really matter in the end. What will it hurt? It's my life; I'll do as I please. Or he weakens their mind by telling them that they can't help themselves. I know I'm addicted, but it's too late for help. I can't do anything about it.

The enemy is sometimes assisted by female soldiers who don't realize what they are doing. Attempting to attract male soldiers, they act in a way that is not proper or wear clothing that is not modest. They frequently don't even realize that they are making their brothers stumble.

It would seem easier if the King simply removed all sources of temptation from the soldier's life after his eyes were opened, but He does not. It is enough that the soldier is freed to make right choices. It would not benefit us, nor bring glory to the Captain's name if His soldiers only obeyed Him because they had no other choice.

My comrades, do not continue drinking the world's water. I know well the attraction that the rush holds. Yet it is all vanity. It will not last, while the joy that comes from drinking the Living Water lasts forever. Leave the world's filth and be free.

My sisters, do not make your brothers stumble. Please carefully examine your motives for your actions and the way that you dress. Let the King bring the right man to you in his time. Do not try to take matters into your own hands by attracting men to you with your body.

Glory to the Captain who has set us free to choose His water. It is no choice at all. How is a choice between joy eternal and soiled guilt really a choice?

My Captain, thank you for your sacrifice.